SW: 167lbs
GW1: 150lbs
UGW: 119lbs
Just because I say my body is fat and ugly does not mean I think your body is fat and ugly. Even if we have the same weight. Even if our bodies look exactly the same. Even if you weigh 100 lbs more than me. My body is the only body I find ugly. Your body is beautiful to me. Period.
the answer is not in the fridge
Right now. Nothing is as important as being skinny. And having control of my own body.
Your body and mind will start hating food, you will feel sick when you see a hot dog. It’ll stop being you forcing yourself not to eat. You’ll stop being hungry all the time.
So just wait until tomorrow to binge. Wait, and it’ll all go away.
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-weight
-appearance
-intelligence (or lack of)
-skills (or lack of)
-weird hobbies
-friends (or lack of)
-body
-personality
-family
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Having an eating disorder is… exhausting. It’s the only word I can use to describe it, it’s… physically exhausting, obviously, no matter what disorder you have it’s gonna affect your body- and it’s so emotionally taxing and painful. It causes you to feel such intense shame and hatred for yourself, but also such… intense pride in what you’re doing that at times you’re living in this constant emotional conflict with yourself. And what you’re doing is just something that your body is biologically trained to avoid- and it’s a civil war, to be fighting against yourself. Either way, nobody’s gonna win.
Isa Gueye, Civil War Sickness, 2015 (via vlicha)
The conflict though is possibly the largest milestone of your recovery. Wanting to get better but not wanting to is very positive- you are already fighting. So keep going.
(via milliesrecoveryrecords)
I have the mind of an ED but the body of a whale.
I tell myself “don’t eat today, it’ll be worth it”
followed by “eat whatever if people don’t like you, for you, then you don’t need them”
This is killing me slowly but surely
I need to stick to this
Someone help me please
I’ve never been good at healthy eating, that’s why I’m the fat ones
Oh To Be Skinny
